I guess I should start out saying that I am exhausted! We had our annual Christmas party at AIM last night, and I spent the week helping prepare for it. The room was beautiful, thanks to the vision/talent of my friend (who decorated it last year too). Definitely worth the time and energy... now I just need some major rest!
Today (Sunday) I slept in and cleaned/organized, thus ending my spurt of have-to-create-something-itis. I'm pretty sure it's gone now. Since I was on the go from early in the morning to midnight every night this week, I didn't get any writing done. But alas. I have a clean apartment. An organized one. And helped put together a pretty incredible success of a party. Still a week of accomplishment!
Sitting here in my wonderfully clean room, I'm a bit confused. You see, I've started transitioning decorating styles in the past month. When I moved here, I bought all the cheap stuff/pulled things out of storage that I could. Now that I've been here for a year, I have a better idea of who I am/what my decorating style is/what makes me feel at home in a room. So I've been slowly purchasing things here and there as my wallet allowed. Mostly small items, but this week I got a new bedspread. And now the change is so evident.
There's just one problem. The room is only half done.
Parts are the old, rushed together room. And some parts are the wonderfully, so-pretty-I-can't-stop-looking-at-it wonderland.
It kind of reminds me of whenever I go back through my stories and re-work things. I take the original vision and rewrite, tweak, and edit again, trying to incorporate it and make it better at the same time. Sometimes I have to start from scratch. But usually something, even if it's just the bare bones, is reusable. Until it's finished though, it's a confusing sight. I'm the only one who can see what it will be. Kind of like my room now.
But oh, the vision I have. If I can pull it off, it'll be gorgeous. That day won't be for months, though. Still, I wait... ponder... dream... rework angles, colors, light, and shadow. Trying to bring my vision to life.
Definitely reminds me a lot of the editing process.
Do you know that in between feeling?
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